Tomorrow, we can return to our regular blog style
Tomorrow, we can return to our regular blog style. I think of myself as a pretty happy-go-lucky blogger. And I know I don't have a lot of readership, which is fine by me. I hope that anyone who reads here enjoys it, and that's all that matters. But, today, I have to let you all know something so you don't get confused later on.
This past week, the man I was going to marry informed me that he did not want to marry me. We were planning to get married this December. When he told me, I was an emotional wreck. I am stable again. I even made it to work the next day, much to the amazement of the rest of the lab when they found out.
I am honestly not angry at him. I wish him the best. In the end, our personalities were different in a way that he could not love. When all is said and done, I don't want to live my life unloved, and he deserves better than living his life with a woman that he doesn't love. The endpoint breaker was that, as we discussed this difference in our personalities after he said he didn't want to marry me, I asked if he wanted to want to marry me. When he said he didn't even want to want to marry me, I told him, "Then we should part our ways." If he had wanted to want it, we could have worked it out. But that's not the case. I am just glad that he spoke up before we defamed something as sacred as marriage.
I am not lying when I say that I am really okay. The more I think about it, the more I feel it was for the best. And I'm not lying when I say I'm not mad at him. I don't feel malicious towards him. He did what he needed to do.
But I'm totally keeping that dress for when I do get married.
This past week, the man I was going to marry informed me that he did not want to marry me. We were planning to get married this December. When he told me, I was an emotional wreck. I am stable again. I even made it to work the next day, much to the amazement of the rest of the lab when they found out.
I am honestly not angry at him. I wish him the best. In the end, our personalities were different in a way that he could not love. When all is said and done, I don't want to live my life unloved, and he deserves better than living his life with a woman that he doesn't love. The endpoint breaker was that, as we discussed this difference in our personalities after he said he didn't want to marry me, I asked if he wanted to want to marry me. When he said he didn't even want to want to marry me, I told him, "Then we should part our ways." If he had wanted to want it, we could have worked it out. But that's not the case. I am just glad that he spoke up before we defamed something as sacred as marriage.
I am not lying when I say that I am really okay. The more I think about it, the more I feel it was for the best. And I'm not lying when I say I'm not mad at him. I don't feel malicious towards him. He did what he needed to do.
But I'm totally keeping that dress for when I do get married.
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