A Bizarre Connection To Music
Ever since my engagement was called off, I have had a very roller-coaster-like life. Some days, I sit there and think, "I'm better off without him!" and then other days I want to climb into my emotional cave. However, what I've found odd is my connection to two songs in regards to this:
1) You've Got a Friend In Me
I cannot listen to this song at the moment. I associate it with my ex-fiance. For a few reasons, but mostly because he loved Woody as a child. I hope that this eventually wears off, because it's a fantastic song. In fact, I have some CDs that I burned from my iTunes to listen to in my car, and my Disney sing-a-long CDs feature this song, and I just have to skip it.
2) A Thousand Years (by Christina Perri)
The only bad part of this song is that it was written for a Twilight film. Other than that, it is a wonderful song. And in fact, it was the song Brian and I danced to the night we got engaged. And it was the song that we had planned to dance to at our wedding. So, you would think that I would now hate this song. But I actually don't. In fact, I like it even more now. Because when it comes on the radio, I smile in a "don't-cry-because-it's-over-smile-because-it-happened" way, and just think, "I have loved someone for 1000 years, and I will love them for 1000 more. It just isn't going to be Brian. But whoever that man is, he's out there somewhere."
And then when 97.9 does a twin-spin at two of Christina Perri where the other song is "Jar of Hearts," I think, "Yeah! Don't come back for me, don't come back at all!"
1) You've Got a Friend In Me
I cannot listen to this song at the moment. I associate it with my ex-fiance. For a few reasons, but mostly because he loved Woody as a child. I hope that this eventually wears off, because it's a fantastic song. In fact, I have some CDs that I burned from my iTunes to listen to in my car, and my Disney sing-a-long CDs feature this song, and I just have to skip it.
2) A Thousand Years (by Christina Perri)
The only bad part of this song is that it was written for a Twilight film. Other than that, it is a wonderful song. And in fact, it was the song Brian and I danced to the night we got engaged. And it was the song that we had planned to dance to at our wedding. So, you would think that I would now hate this song. But I actually don't. In fact, I like it even more now. Because when it comes on the radio, I smile in a "don't-cry-because-it's-over-smile-because-it-happened" way, and just think, "I have loved someone for 1000 years, and I will love them for 1000 more. It just isn't going to be Brian. But whoever that man is, he's out there somewhere."
And then when 97.9 does a twin-spin at two of Christina Perri where the other song is "Jar of Hearts," I think, "Yeah! Don't come back for me, don't come back at all!"
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